This Is Me

Helpless.

I feel so helpless. So utterly helpless. I feel so alone. I’m listening to Fall by Ascend the Hill. The song completely describes how I feel. I’ve built a wall between me and God. I can’t hear Him, I can’t feel Him, I can’t see Him. I’m selfish. I want to change, I just don’t know how. And there’s no one for me to turn to. I feel like my prayers are in vain. I feel alone. It’s the worst feeling I’ve ever felt. I have no one to talk to. The one person i’m talking to,  I want to help him. And he couldn’t help me anyway. We both need to be fixed before we can help anyone. But i’m still trying. It always comes to this. I spend too much time trying to fix others and forget about myself. It’s breaking me. It’s killing me. I need help, fast. I almost feel like I can’t breathe.